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I made it through 2013 without either going completely insane or dying! Yeah! Lately, anytime someone wishes me a better year than 2013, I can't help but think how easy that will be. If I have a worse year, someone ought to just put me out of my misery. But anyways.
I don't normally make new year resolutions. No one ever keeps them and they always have to do with losing weight or getting in shape and after a week to a month of trying to do this, people lose interest.
However, since I recently underwent a major life change (and because 2013 was so bad without having any goals), I've made some goals for myself. Some of my goals are long-term while others are short-term. And, by the end of 2014, I'm not going to judge how good or bad the year was with how many of these I've accomplished. That's not what these goals are for. These are just to get me started in direction I want to go with my life (and that boils down to living a love and joy-filled life).
1. Finish reading my Bible.
I've resumed my reading plan (finally) and, as long as I read what I'm scheduled to every day, I'll end May 23. It'll be the first time in my life I've read the entire thing.
2. Live in love (or stop living in fear).
"Perfect love casts out all fear" is in 1 John. So many of my decisions have been based on fear. I'm afraid of pain, of rejection, of disappointment. And so I've been stressed. I get stressed any time I need to bring up a topic of, say, I can't work this day, or saying "No, I can't do that right now." So I'm going to make an ongoing effort to not be afraid. After all, if I'm afraid I won't accomplish these resolutions, I might as well give up now.
3. Plan trips.
And do one of two things: take them, or start saving money to take them. Some trips will be short day trips or weekend trips, and those won't take as much time or money, so those I will start doing as soon as I'm able. Others, though, are ones that will require much more planning and saving - like going to South Africa.
4. Take care of myself physically.
This includes much more than just "eat better" and "get in shape." Some specific ones for me are:
- Run a mile.
- Put my hands flat on the floor while my feet are together and my knees are straight.
- Improve flexibility in my entire body.
- Choose to drink water.
- Cook for myself.
- Keep my hair cut to look nice.
5. Repair and/or replace old junk.
For example, most of my shoes need replacing because they are so full of holes and so old they don't fit my feet right. Many of my clothes need holes sewed up, or just need replacing. My laptop needs a charger.
6. Be in at least one play.
I'm trying for Chicago when Piedmont Players has auditions in February. I love Chicago. But, more importantly, I love acting. I went to school for it. And I haven't acted in two or two and a half years. What better way to get back in acting shape than to just go for it, right?
7. Choreograph a full routine.
Dance is my first love. I haven't choreographed something I've been proud of in over a year and a half. Again, what better way to get back into the dance world than to just go for it?
So there they are. There are fuller explanations to some of these that I can't seem to put into words. I'm coming to the conclusion that, sometimes, its okay to not be able to explain something in words. That's where art comes in (at least for people like me). It takes the raw emotion and finds a way to display it.
One last thought. I'm beginning to find that, in a journey to "find myself," it doesn't look like a "finding" process at all. It looks, and feels, like a journey of becoming the woman I want to be.
