The Problem With Mind Over Matter

Hey everyone! It seems you all were as excited to find out about baby Amelia as I was (and still am)!

Just an update on my part: I've apparently been sick. I went to the doctor yesterday for my 20 week checkup (we're halfway there, whoop whoop!) and told her that I just generally haven't been feeling well.

I've had bad postnasal drip. I've been sneezing. I've been feeling more and more run down. And it's been going on at least two weeks now.

So, she suggested taking an antibiotic since I wasn't getting any better on my own. Y'all, I hate taking antibiotics. But I hate her other options (claritin or mucinex) more because they dry me out and give me "medicine head." And I DEFINITELY hate being sick more. So, hello Z-pack.

Well, turns out she was right. I took my first dose after lunch yesterday. By this point, my sinuses were starting to throb and I felt awful (and I think it only hit me then because I had finally admitted I didn't feel well). By yesterday evening, I was starting to feel a little better. Last night, I was able to finally actually sleep. This morning, I'm still run down feeling, but I feel much more human again!

So good news, the medicine is working.

Bad news, that means I actually had some little nasties brewing in my system.

And THAT right there is the problem with mind over matter.

I refused to let myself be "sick."
I'm a mom; I don't have time for that.
I'm pregnant; I don't have time for that.
I'm running a house; I don't have time for that.

But, I should've realized I did, indeed, have time  for that.

Because I should've known. The signals were all there.

The postnasal drip that was so bad I was gagging on it almost all day.
The sneezing (and sneezing and sneezing).
The severe lack of energy.
The inability to get a good night's sleep.
The weepiness.
The painful acne breakouts (my acne is ONLY this painful when I'm getting sick).
The constantly being cold (even though I had no fever).
The lack of appetite.
The lack of motivation to do anything at all.

Now, a lot of these can be attributed simply to pregnancy. So, that's what I did. I refused to admit that I honestly and truly felt sick, and just blamed the hormones.

So, the moral of this story is: know your body. Listen to your body. Mind over matter can be a beautiful thing, but if you honestly do not feel well, don't be afraid to do something about it.

That way, you don't feel miserable for way longer than necessary.

Now that's out of the way, here's the update on my beautiful family:

For starters, Rin is, well, Rin. She's been taking care of her "babies" more and more. And been trying to help Mommy more and more (which sometimes works out nicely....other times, not so much: try cleaning with a toddler at your feet moving everything around and you'll understand).

Unfortunately, I have no adorable pictures this week. I've been a little busy trying to not fall on my own face.

As for Andrew, he's doing well. Student teaching seems to be going well, even if it's a little stressful.

And I just have to be mushy for a moment and say that I am so so so grateful to him.

We may have our bad moments, but he has been so forgiving and supportive for me these last few weeks.
He's held me in the middle of the night when I wake up from a nightmare (pregnancy nightmares are a b with a capital B) crying without asking for an explanation until I've calmed down enough to talk. He's held me when I'm crying for stupid reasons in the middle of the afternoon.
He's helped me with the dishes when I'm just too tired after the day to do anything else.
He's played with Rin when I'm too frustrated to deal anymore (and even when he just wanted to).
He's helped read bedtime stories.
He's cleaned up after me when I haven't had the energy to straighten up the apartment.

He has genuinely been my helpmate and my friend. And I couldn't do this whole Mom thing without him. (Granted, I also wouldn't BE a mom without him either hahahaha....sorry, I couldn't resist).

So, that's family life the past few weeks. I hope you all are doing well and staying healthy during this crazy weather (I know at least in NC, it's been crazy...60 degrees one day, 30 the next....ugh!). Much love! Until next time!